Finding myself, Despite myself

WHERE IN THE WORLD AM I? I've been asking myself this question lately.

In the busy-ness of the everyday--being a mother, wife, daughter, sister and employee--I sometimes feel scattered all over the place by the habit of multi-tasking and the ‘need’ to be in at least two places at once.

Sort of being everywhere. And yet nowhere.

And somewhere along the way, I un-learned how to simply be. Right where I am… (So maybe, in a way, I've lost touch with myself).

Instead, I've been sort of projecting my mind or my thoughts out into other spaces – to my workplace, to my hopes, to my obligations and responsibilities, to my worries.

My wish is to simply let all of that stuff fall away. Let my thoughts and wishes and distractions and concerns go for a moment or two. Set them down and just experience who I am. Where I am. As I am...

So that I might find out what this actually means for me. Find out what my body is noticing. Find out what my heart is saying. Find what this moment, this particular time in my life, really feels like. Or find a space to breathe amid the multi-tasking.

And maybe even find myself in the process.

Yes the beach is where I want to be :)